I don't want to use my wheelchair.

I tend to portray a very positive person to the outside world, but I'm conflicted about my current situation.  I use my blog as a way to connect to the outside world, and I can't always relay positive and inspirational tidbits.  I recently wrote this in an e-mail to my friend:

Inside, I'm a very confident person.  I think I'm attractive, and I know I have a nice body, but I'm in a wheelchair.  The constant drive and determination I have wants me so bad to get out of my wheelchair.  I don't feel at all like a disabled person.  It's kind of hard being something I don't want to be.

What a shitty movie "Open Water" is. Don't ever watch this. It's as if the director made an effort to make this movie awful.

Some people enjoy spreading negativity. I try to avoid negativity at all cost. Negativity is similar to a disease. Negativity eats at your soul.

Every romantic comedy I've ever seen sucks dick.

I think I enjoy diet water more than anyone I know.

I realize I don't really have a reason to hate anyone. Nobody has ever done anything terrible to me. Nobody has ever murdered anybody close to me (fingers crossed), or nobody has ever anally raped me (fingers crossed).

Bancroft failed to tell me my house manager (a straight pimp) would run a brothel at 61 Dey Rd. (I'm just kidding.)

I hate the world view that lumps Islam in with terroristm. I have a friend who's a Muslim, and she's such an awesome, selfless person.

Wearing a turban does not turn you into a terrorist. Killing innocent people makes you a terrorist.