Progress Baby, Progress

My cognitive therapist tells me she thinks "a person who asks for help is stronger than a person who tries to do too much."  I might be quoting her wrong, but I take huge issue with this belief.  I think that the only way society progresses is  when one person tries, or a collection of people try, to do "too much".  As a society, I think we need to keep trying different things or we'd cease to progress.  I understand the value of understanding ones limitations, but we need to keep trying new things to redefine the limit.  As a generalization, I think people ask for help too much.

A wise man once told me you can tell a lot about a man by the way he treats animals.

Bring It On

I'm pretty motivated to become completely independent.  I take advantage of my physical strength to thrive in my therapies.  Some people in therapy are too old/weak to thrive the way I do.  Sometimes I feel like I was meant to have my accident.  Everything I've done in my life up to this point (completing a half-marathon, going through many all-nighters in grad. scool) has prepared me to take on these challenges.  I can handle anything, and I'll handle anything with ease.  That sounds arrogant, but I am very confident in myself, and I can take on ANY challenge presented before me.

As I watch a film on the universe, I realize how insignificant humans are.

Most people aren't as anal as me.

I suggest you see the film "69 Jump Street".

Look Closer

I've been thinking about myself lately.  I dress pretty simply and the person I present to the world is pretty simple, but as you get to know me, you realize I'm pretty complex.  A simlar concept applies to me in my wheelchair.  When one sees me initially, one probably assumes I'm a normal handicapped person.  As one gets to know me, one realizes I'm an extremely hard worker who's not complacent with being in my wheelchair.

I don't want to use my wheelchair.

I tend to portray a very positive person to the outside world, but I'm conflicted about my current situation.  I use my blog as a way to connect to the outside world, and I can't always relay positive and inspirational tidbits.  I recently wrote this in an e-mail to my friend:

Inside, I'm a very confident person.  I think I'm attractive, and I know I have a nice body, but I'm in a wheelchair.  The constant drive and determination I have wants me so bad to get out of my wheelchair.  I don't feel at all like a disabled person.  It's kind of hard being something I don't want to be.

What a shitty movie "Open Water" is. Don't ever watch this. It's as if the director made an effort to make this movie awful.